Let me love you ♥

October 23, 2009

2009-10-23T07:28:00.000-07:00

He kissed me in the lips. Two times the craze baby. WHOA. It was pretty romantic. I am with him awhile ago. About 9:30 at the evening. Then before he left me.. He asked me if he can kiss me again for the 2nd time around. I said YES. i moved closer to a car then his lips felt mine. My eyes were all closed. DAMN. i love this day. Even though, Nahulog ako sa stairs and I grated my finger.. Everything in my world turned alright with that simple kiss. HAHA. And our 1st kiss was awhile ago. Around 5-6 PM. And he even had this sound effect that's why I keep on laughing. But this second time around. it was gentle and silent. Damn. i love him. (:\

Now, I'm texting him and I even wanted to hug him about a hour ago. It's very cold. My mom is with his mom, Drinking. My dad & lil'bro.. Sleeping. I am the one who's awake in our house. HAHA. I'm listening to Justin Bieber songs. And.. many of teenagers now are crazy over him. Even my classmates. And I. We all do whatever Justin do in his music video. HAHA.

Okay. i'm gonna sleep now after fixing the layout. :)
Goodnight. :)

克里斯泰尔爱伊万

2009-09-20T05:14:00.000-07:00

克里斯泰尔爱伊万 <3

Translate it into Google Translator.

Ugh. I miss him na. We broke up yesterday.

And It should be our 3rd monthsary of 21 tomorrow.

Damn. I miss those days that he can make me smile.

The days that he can make me laugh even more.

The days that he's the only one that makes me inspire during my day.

All I have on my mind is our memories.

Whenever someone's talking to me. I've been out of my mind.

I keep on saying ''Huh?''

Maybe because, I'm out of my league.

I wish we can bring back the old times for the 6th time.

I know you love me. You know I love you.

But it's like. Walang affection.

Lately, On the day that you are with us.

Xeaila and me. I know it's dark in our subdivision.

I just want to hold your hand. Seriously.

I want to kiss you right away. But I don't have the strength.

I did regret on that day. I wish it would go back.

I wish you can feel how much I love you still.

If my words are not yet enough to make you feel,

Please, look at me. Feel that I am really dying and wanting your love again.

I miss you. I super duper miss you and your love.

And you also promised me that you will love me even though we're not anymore.

But, I love you. I can't move on. I'm stuck with you.

With your love. I wish you can understand what I am feeling.

I want you back, It's my only birthday wish.

I do regret na I did make talo-talo yesterday. x'(

WILL YOU COME BACK TO ME?

One time. <3

2009-09-19T01:16:00.000-07:00

Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time
Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time
Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time

One time
One time

When i met you girl my heart went knock knock
Now them butterflies in my stomach wont stop stop
And even though it's a struggle love is all we got
So we gonna keep keep climbin till the mountain top

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (i got my)

Chorus:

Your my one love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
And i'm a be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl always makin time for you
I'm'a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm'a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)

You look so deep
You know that it humbles me
Your by my side and troubles them don't trouble me
Many have called but the chosen is you
Whatever you want shawty i'll give it to you

Your world is my world
And my fight is your fight
My breath is your breath
And your heart (i got my)

Chorus:

Your my one love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
And i'm a be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl always makin time for you
I'm'a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm'a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)

Shawty right there
She's got everything i need and i'm a tell her one time
One time, one time
Give you everything you need down to my last dime
She makes me happy
I know where i'll be
Right by your side cuz she is the one
And girl

Chorus:

You're my one love
My one heart
My one life for sure
Let me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
And i'm a be your one guy
You'll be my #1 girl always makin time for you
I'm a me tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)
I'm a tell you one time (girl i love, girl i love you)

Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time
Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time
Me plus you, i'm a tell you one time

One time
One time

Fourteen days before my birthday.

2009-09-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

You're my one love, My one heart, My one life for sure. <3

The song Happy Birthday and lots of greeting will come again to me.

It's going to be my 13th birthday on October 2. And it will be our 4th monthsary for 2.

I remembered something. Okay. Past. (:'

With my own money. I bought up this iPod.

As for myself. A birthday gift for me. \:D/

Tehee. Okay. I got problems in fixing, transferring files on it.

But then. It went okay. (:

I'm gonna make kwento kwento on our fieldtrip. {:

Okay. I was stupid. I took pictures of the people outside.

I was just fooling around and yet some will smile.

laugh, wave and do silly faces. I don't know them. (((:

Okay, I'm bored now.

Fun doesn't end when you become twelve. ((((((((:

blabberbubble. XD

2009-09-13T05:43:00.000-07:00

灿灿

Boredom.

2009-09-05T23:28:00.000-07:00

1. OK LANG BA SAYO KUNG UNG BF/GF MO UMIINOM?
- maybe. siguro occasionally.

2. EH NAGYOYOSI?
- no. [PERIOD]

3. KUNG MERONG MAY GUSTO SAYO NGAYON, GUSTO MO BANG SABIHIN NILA SAYO?
- it's their decision. kasi we have different points of view in life.

4. SPORTS NA PINAPANUOD MO SA TV?
- sports ba ang cheerleading? XD

5. MARUNONG KA BANG MAG SPLIT?
- never. siguro kapag trinatry ko. may 3 inches pa na agwat. :))

6. KAILAN ANG TAMANG PAGKAKATAONG MAGKAROON NG GF/BF?
- ngayon! ahaha.

7. FAVORITE PINOY BAND?
- Typecast. // Callalily.

8. ANONG MASASABI MO SA LOVE LIFE MO NGAYON?
- masaya. xp

9. MAY CRUSH KA BA NGAYON?
- yeah.

10. FIRST IMPRESSION SAYO?
- magulo. x)

11. ANONG ORAS NA?
- 2:43 PM

12. GLOBE,SMART,SUN?
- lahat. xp

13. COMPUTER O LAPTOP?
- laptop.

14. PINAKA MASAYANG TAON NG BUHAY MO?
- 2009.

15. ILANG TAON KA NA PAG NAG BIRTHDAY KA NGAYONG 2009?
- thirteen!

16. FAVORITE TV SHOW?
- MYX. :))

17. COLOR?
- black. // pink. // white.

18. NUMBER?
- 13.

19. MADALI KA BANG MAGALIT?
- minsan kapag sensitive. ;}

20. MABILIS KA BANG MAGPATAWAD?
- depends.

21. KUNG MAGIGING SIKAT KA, SINGER OR DANCER?
- singer nalang. hahaha.

22. ANONG GUSTO MO SA ISANG TAO?
- eyes. smile. attitude.

23. NANINIWALA KA BA SA LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
- i don't know.

24. EH SA LOVE IS BLIND?
- nope.

25. IYAKIN KA BA?
- yes.

26. MARAMI KA PA BANG GUSTONG GAWIN SA BUHAY MO?
- yeah.

27. PAG SINABI BA SAYONG MALAPIT NG DUMATING YUNG TAONG PARA SAYO MANINIWALA KA?
- hindi na. kasi na saakin na yung para sakin eh. :)

28. MAY MASAKIT BA SAYO?
- oo.

29. Sa tingin mo ba easy-to-get yung mga babaeng umo-oo agad pgktapos ng dalawang buwan?
- ewan.

30. Laos na ba ang flowers at chocolates?
- nope.

31. Kapag ba nagdadate dapat yung lalake lang yung magbabayad?
- naah. hindi naman. dapat quits.

32. San ba pwede pumunta kapag magddate?
- kahit saan.

33. Bakit kaya hindi makuntento ang mga two-timer?
- they don't love the first one eh.

34. Bakit kaya pakipot ang mga babae?
- ewan ko.

35. Sa tingin mo, bakit kaya yung ibang tao ayaw ng commitment?
- siguro di pa nila carry. XD

36. Anung mas mganda? MU o yung opisyal na magkasintahan?
- both.

37. Masasabi mo bang magkaugali kayo ni Maria Clara?
- hindi yata.

38. Mabilis ka bang mainlove?
- depends. x:

39. Baket ba tayo nagsasawa? Anong pwedeng gawin kapag mukhang ngkakasawaan na kayo?
- tanong mo.

40. May binasted kana bang babae/lalake na pinagsisihan mong binasted mo siya?
- uh. oo yata?

41. Nagkaroon ka na ba ng stalker? Sino yun?
- oo. basta.

42. Anong itsura mo kapag in love ka?
- edaydreamer. tapos. XD

43. Eh kapag broken hearted ka?
- namamaga mata. haha.

44. May time ba na na-obsess ka ng sobra-sobra sa crush mo at naging stalker ka niya?
- yeah.

45. Masaya ba kapag taken ka?
- medyo.

46. Masaya bang maging single?
- medyo.

The PTC Letter story. :))

2009-08-28T05:05:00.000-07:00

Party and laugh all night long!

Okay. I miss them. I miss them.
I miss them terribly :c
I miss my co-argues. x)

I wish they will be there for me
when I visit SMC for the first time.

---

I received a PTC letter.
which means I failed. ;___;
It was on Science..

I remembered.. Science should be my favorite subject.
But not now. The teacher is good. But the way she teaches..
i kinda hate it. It's too fast. That she gives suprise long tests,
long quizzes. long everything.

But then.. ''My grades aren't my passbook to go in Heaven.''
It's just the way of living great in the future.
It's good that I only have Science. Even though..

Math is what I failed last year. But not as I got a failing mark on my card.
I almost! I got 83 in Mathematics. And as far as I can remember..
I got 93 in Science. That's how I loved Science and Technology last year.
But this year. Okay. Straight face. No comment.

There are many students who had received the PTC letter.
Including me. Yeah. HAHA.
Mrs. Catbagan -- My adviser did asked me awhile ago while we're being
asked to cover our eyes. When I received the letter. I opened my eyes and okay. Looked over Mrs. Catbagan to see who are the students that receieved one. Then she even asked me..

Mrs. Catbagan: Where is Katrina Millan?
Kristel: Teacher, The one who is in my row. Wearing the purple dress.
Mrs. Catbagan: Okay..

She walks forward. And I hid my letter in my binder because the next subject was TLE. We'll gonna watch daw a movie. So I did place the binder in top of my desk. She placed the letter on my lap. And yet. I know that I will receive one. I thought it will be Math. And yes! It was Science.

Then Mrs. Catbagan walks towards me again. Asked me..

Mrs. Catbagan: Where is Nina Retirado?
Kristel: Teacher, The girl sitting beside Alyssa Castro.
Mrs. Catbagan: Okay.

And yet.. She walks toward and placed on Nina's desk. She's whispering the questions to me. Because she knows that I know. Uhh. Wrong. As far as I know that she knows.. Everybody was alert. Very alert. And yet, They know the moves.

It maybe a bad news for my parents but they did accept it.
I did explained some to my Father. But yet, He understood me.
They will attend. And yet. I'm sure i'll be having higher grades this quarter.
I have this BucketList. Yeah. It's my goals in life that I should do before I graduate and before I took the NCAE. I want to graduate of course. And took Bachelor of Laws. Then go the work of a Judge. ROFLMAO. Am I being a big feeler? HAHA.

I remembered, My classmates asked me what do I like to be when I grow up.
My friend said she wants to be a terrorist. I said.. I want to be a rapist.
Stupid huh? HAHA. We we're just kidding. We always want to be a Secret Agent Spy.
Yeah. Secret Agent Spy. Just like CIA? Am I right? And CSI? NBI. HAHA.
Then Interpol. HighwayPatrol. ROFLMAO. We're too stupid. :))

And we we're talking about this Pyscho Killers. HAHA.
Okay. The end. I can't say anything more. Nabblanko na ako.
Baka sugurin ako ng Pyscho Killer. NAKAW!

MagotMagicSarap. :p

2009-08-25T18:55:00.000-07:00

HELL! We won the competition yesterday. \:D/
The argues did let us stayed strong at the competition. [:
It's a big worth. (((((:

I haven't updated you since then. Sarry. :[
I'll be out later on. We'll be hanging out at Robinsons. :)))

I'm so bored..
I miss him na!
SuperduperExtravagantMagnificientEverything!

Okay. if he's reading this one..
I love you. Please tell him. :]
I miss you too. And text or evern call me. :[

2009-08-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

GoodEvening Blog!
There will be no classes the next day after tomorrow.

Yeah. It's August 20 today. Yeah. I hell remembered something.
Then agreed at September 20.
Hey! My friend monthsary *old* was seventeen!
I forgot to greet them Happy Anniversary!

I forgot.. They broke up na pala.
There are other fishes in the sea naman eh.

Oh. Im gonna tell you a story..
But I wasn't still doing my assignment in Math. Okay. Tomorrow.

GOODBYE!

Chubs. :x

2009-08-15T05:44:00.000-07:00

Chubs. I miss you na.
I'll try to paload na.
Pero, Asleep ka na yata Chubs eh?

Chubs, I love you.

Midnight Madness.

2009-08-14T21:28:00.000-07:00

Was Am I Really Living in Reality of Fantasy?
Or Fantasy of Reality?

Midnight Madness. I slept about 12:30 AM.
I was busy texting him. and, making these fan signs
in return of what they gave me.

I was this lamp. Which I almost broke down, It almost fall. Yeah. Clumsy lamp.

I had fun last night texting with him. Even though, one of us did slept early. Everything was great. Yeah. And here it goes. I know you are reading this blog chubs.

Your name wasn't that good. It was blurred.
Sorry. But I did took a picture of it. (:

I really really do. :x
I have more copies if you want to have more chubs. ily.

I'll follow you.

I'm getting shy. :">

2009-08-14T05:30:00.000-07:00

Now, I know. (((:
He's reading my blog. NOW!

embarrased na'co. ahaha. ((:

--

i remembered, you are the reader.
&& i am the blogger. (((:

--

haha. may natamaan. (((:

AGAIN. (((:

2009-08-14T02:48:00.001-07:00

For the fifth time. (((:
Yeah, CRAZY.

But this time, It's more complicated. (((:
We call each other chübs.
Why? because, I always eat. (((:

Ohh, I'm back from a stressful week.
Exams, Exams and Exams on my head. ((:

--------

Oh, I would like to say this in tagalogg // englishh. ((:

-- naiirita ako sa ibang tao. i swear. masyadong nagmamakarunong.
leader leader pa siya, suggestions naman ng iba ang ginagamit.
TANGA ba siya? basta, isang araw..
haharapin kita.

-- at yung mga BACKSTABBERS.
I treat them well -- more than friends.
at gagantihan ka pa nila. grr.

i hate it. nakita na nga nila na umiiyak ako,
magtatanong pa sila. nasisiraan ba sila?..
bulag ba sila? nakakakita ba sila ng luha?
alam ba nila ang luha? tanga naman nila!

tapos, ako pagsasabihan mo nang galit mo sa kaibigan ko.
sira ka ba? kaibigan ko siya.
i don't care kung kaaway mo siya.
basta ako, I befriend EVERYONE.

sabihan mo man ako nang maarte, suplada.
babalik at babalik yan sayo.

-- at, sagot-sagutin kaya kita? iiyak ka?
babarahin kita. maasar ka.
oo, maasar ako. tignan mo,
TAO ako. may feelings.

-- at, pukpukin ko kaya yang ulo mo? bwiset.
nananahimik ako dun ah.
kala mo maganda ginagawa mo.
gaano ka ba ka-galing para gaguhin ako?
harapan nalang. bilis, handa na ako.
kahit magisa pa ako.
magsama ka pa nang lahat ng tao sa mundo.
tao ako. i have feelings.

nasasaktan ako. umiiyak ako.
tumatawa ako. hindi ako nakocontrol.
kasi hindi ako ROBOT!
at wala akong REMOTE! okay?

'cause I know I have the right to be RESPECTED!

thank you for the cold welcome.
Promise. Ang galing nga.
I never expected that they will be acting such..

PAUSE.

MATAMAAN SAPUL! // SORRY.

i just don't know where to burst out what i'm feeling.
and i know it is the truth.

I miss you.

2009-08-09T00:28:00.000-07:00

I miss you. The way you say i love you to me.

The way you text me.

The way you show your love to me.

I want to get back.

2009-08-08T04:31:00.000-07:00

I want to get back, To the old days.
When the phone rings. And I know it was you.
I want to get back and get yelled at.

Okay, I want you back guy. I love you.
Come back to me please?

Ohh. Nonsense thingies. XDD

THE END.

2009-08-08T03:04:00.000-07:00

We're DONE!
love is finished.

The end of our love story. :[
Yeah. THE END.

but, i do still text him.
i can't resist his love.

and oh, awhile ago..
he said i love you.
at he thought we're still "couples".

how I wish. i'm so damn for letting him go away from me.

I don't think I deserve this baby.
I miss you. // i love you. // i need you.

I said I was SUPER SORRY.

2009-08-05T04:26:00.000-07:00

I was saying it to him. A hundred times at Plurk.com

I lied to them that I was invisible for a long time at Y!M.

But i'm not. I just came up to open my account to see whenever they are people online.

And I saw him online. And he said on Plurk that he will now deplurk.

And now, He will me mad at me. Undoubtedly. He said that I was the one who didn't even said of a thing that I was still online.

But, It was him. I didn't said I am going to be off in that time.

It was he who said that. I said I was SUPER SORRY.

And he just set it aside. It took 1 hour before he replied.

And yesterday, He texted me. Saying a quote. That he misses me.

He loves me and I should take good care of myself always.

But how do I will take good care of myself? If he's not there,

Not there to give me strength. Okay. I confess,

I got my eyes really namumugto yesterday.

I was crying while writing this stupid poem.

While reading his saved messages.

I wish it will never end. I wish his promises will not be broken. ;____:

Forever and Always.

2009-08-04T05:41:00.000-07:00

`I'll be by your side, You know i'll take your hand.
When it gets cold, And feels like the end you know I will be there.
just KEEP HOLDiNG ON.`

the promises we've made.
I wish it will not be broken.

The promise that YOU will NEVER LEAVE ME.
The promise that YOU will NEVER MAKE ME CRY.
The promise that I'LL BE YOUR FIRST AND THE LAST YOU'LL LOVE.
The promise that YOU'LL NEVER REPLACE ME.
The promise that YOU'LL LOVE ME FOREVER.
The promise that YOU'LL DO EVERYTHING JUST FOR ME.
and everything more.

I wish we'll stay forever. <3
and happy. ofcorz.

I can't stop loving you more and more and more each day comes. -- XSTEL.

P.S: Shet, ang lapit na mag'THiRTEEN.
Happy first monthsary in the month of THiRTEEN of us. <3

2009-08-01T05:31:00.000-07:00

I should say something right?
HA HA. I guess so.
*padagdag posts.*

oh, tomorrow, it should be our..
2nd monthsary. :-J

To the one I love to the greatest,
i love you!
i have no more to say.

*bow.

Ang Katotohanan.

2009-08-01T04:22:00.000-07:00

Kapag ngumiti ka na ng konti,

nag-ayos ng konti pagkakamalan ka nang malandi.

Hindi pangseryosohang relasyon.

Marinig lang nila na malakas kang mag-salita,

palengkera ka na.

T.O. kagad sa kanila iyon.

Mahilig silang tumingin sa mga babaeng sexy manamit,

kulang nalang makita na kaluluwa.

Pero kapag babaeng seryosohin at gustong ligawan

dapat disente,

dapat mala-anghel ang mukha,

dapat mukhang inosente.

Tapos kami pa raw ang mahilig mamili?

Parang baliktad yata?

Ok, ayan nanliligaw na si lalake.

Dapat pakipot ka para suyuin ka, para habulin ka pa lalo.

Kapag hindi ka naman nagpakipot.. "easy to get" naman ang tingin sa iyo.

Hindi ka na seseryosohin.

Teka! Sino bang may sabing magpaalila kayo,

di naman namin hawak ang buhay niyo.

Natural lang na magtiis kayo, may gusto kayo sa amin eh.

Kapag nakuha niyo na iyon wala na lahat ng mga paghihirap niyo,

babaliktad na ang sitwasyon kami naman ang mamromroblema.

Para lang kayong may gustong bilhin na bagay.

Upang mabili ito kailangan munang magsakripisyo, magtipid, magtiis.

Pag nabili na at mapagsawaan wala na, balewala na. Diyan ka na sa tabi-tabi.

"Tawagan nalang kita pag trip ko o kaya'y pag may gusto akong ipagawa sa iyo"

Ano pa ba? E di sinagot mo na diba. Utang na loob pa natin yun.

Dahil naghirap daw sila sa panliligaw dapat masuklian natin iyon ng higit pa.

Sa umpisa kailangan malambing ka, maayos at laging magsisilbi sa kanya.

Ayaw daw nilang humawak ng relasyon, pero kapag ikaw naman ang nagmando,

aba! masasakal naman.

Sasabihin pa sa iyo:

"demanding ka."

HAHA :))

Meron ka pang maririnig na:

"I think we need space.",

..........at kung anu-ano pang ek-ek.

Sino rin may sabing di dapat kami magpakabait,

maging devoted at faithful?

Kapag kami ang sumaway niyang mga iyan, iba na ang tingin sa amin.

Malandi na kami, haliparot, pakawala, makikay at kung anu-ano pang mga bansag ang itatawag sa amin.

Kapag kayo gumawa noon, ok lang.

Lalake kayo eh, macho kayo pag ginawa niyo yon.

Kaya kami, walang magawa. Magpapakaburo at magpapakamadre nalang.

Kapag nagloko na kayo ano pa bang magagawa namin?

Eh di iiyak nalang. Wala namang ibang magagawa eh.

Tungkol naman sa tinatawag niyong pagdedemand namin.

Hindi kami nagdedemand! Karapatan lang namin iyon.

Karapatan namin na lambingin niyo kami, icheck at ipakita sa amin na mahal niyo kami.

Ha. Ha. Ha. :))

Hindi rin ibig sabihin na mas sincere kayo sa amin.

Seryoso rin naman kami ah. At ang maturity wala yan sa edad.

Mas maaga nga kaming magmature sa inyo.

Ang isang 19 year old na lalake eh, isip 15 pa yun. It follows iyan sa lahat ng age group.

Mas mataas pa kung minsan ang pagbawas ng level of maturity.

Kayo na ang mag-math!

Pati yung pag-iyak namin pinupuntirya niyo!

Kesyo drama daw. Diba kapag umiyak ka nagbuhos ka ng emosyon diyan.

Ano tingin niyo sa amin mga artista?!

Alam niyo iyon? Yun bang kulang nalang ay lumuha ka na ng dugo,

pero hindi ka pa rin papansinin.

Sasabihan ka pang tigilan na ang pagdradrama.

Hindi nila kami maiintindihan kapag nagseselos kami.

Bakit naman kami magseselos kung wala kaming nakikita?

Mas iba kaming magmahal. Mas masarap..

Kapag natapos na ang lambingan,

eh di siyempre iwanan blues na.

Kami pa raw ang nagsawa, kami pa raw ang nagtritrip lang.

Sino ba ang lumalayas kapag may nakita nang bago,

sino ba ang mayabang,

sino ba ang nagmamalaki?

Kami ba? Kami ang walang choice...

Kasi ang babae pag sinabing "break na tayo.."

Lambingin lang iyan ng konti balikan blues na iyan.

Kapag ang lalake ang umayaw, pucha, bahala ka diyan.

Kahit mag-tambling ka pa sa harap niya. Wa-epek.

Umiyak ka ng bato.Wa-epek.

Tsk, tsk, tsk. Tapos sila pa raw ang kawawa?

Post-break up.

Mahal pa ng babae si lalaki.

Sasamantalahin ni lalaki. Magpapagawa ng kung anu-ano.

Naaalala ka lang kapag may kailangan sa iyo.

Kapag pumangit ka after the break up, magpapasalamat sila na iniwan ka nila.

Kapag gumanda ka naman, ipagkakalat nila sa buong sangkatauhan na naging girlfriend ka niya.

Sala sa init sala sa lamig talaga.

Ano ba namang buhay to?

Ang hirap ding maging babae ano. Kala nila laging sila nalang.

Lagi rin kaming naiiwan sa ere.

Yesterday. *love.

2009-07-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh. I think i'm going to fall yesterday. ((:
I just can't forget it. HAHA. It's a day to remember.
It's the first! And i wish not the last,
to walk with him. GAAH. <.blush.>
I can't stop. everytime i bubble up my face.
i can't stop blushingg. <.blush.>
then blablaa~ talks. uh. slow walks.
uh. then i`m with Xeaila. <.yung nan'dun sa linkk.>
hahah. then i was trying to get this plastic which he did hold for me.
*nakakahiya daw para sakin e..*
then i'm trying to release every finger in that hand of his in the plastic. ((((:
haha. it's damn crazyy. and now, i'm talkingg to him at plurk.
then he said this to me at plurk.. *screenshot*

Okay. Blurry? I don't know. I can't put the link because,
PRIVATE!
hanggang jan lang kayoooo. :p

basta, i love him more each day comes. -- xstel.

surveyy. --- sa buwan. xp

2009-07-31T06:24:00.000-07:00

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
NO. (((:

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
SHORT PARTY DRESS.

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
READ IT.

4. Group dates or single dates?
BOTH.

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
YES. HE SHOULD ACT NATURALLY.

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
I THINK SO.

7. Is your hair up or down today?
UP.

8. Do you straighten your hair?
YES.

9. Favorite mascara?
DON'T WEAR MASCARAS'.

10. Do you get your nails done?
YES.

11. Small or large purses?
BOTH.

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
MONEY. CELLPHONE. LALA~

13. Jeans or sweats?
BOTH.

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
SOMETIMES, IF NEEDED.

15. Do you text message a lot?
OO DAW. HAHA.

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
I'LL BE JUMPING FOR JOY. BUT, NOT NOW AT MY AGE. ROFLMAO. STUDIES. *bow.

17. What’s your favorite color?
BLACK. BLUE. VIOLET. UH?

18. Heels or flats?
BOTH.

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
YEAH.

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
SOMETIMES. HAHA!

21. Walmart or Target?
WALMART.

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
SOMETIMES. ((((:

23. Do you like preppy boys?
I THINK SOOO. :D

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
YES.

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
HAHA ! YEEAAAH!

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
ABOUT 1 HOUR?

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
NO. ((((:

28. Do you like skater boys?
NOT REALLY.

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
YES.

30. Gold or silver?
SILVER.

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
YES.

32. Do you like surfer boys?
NO! LIKE LOBSTERS. HAHA.

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
DEPENDS.

34. Do you like to wear dresseses?
NO. WHEN IT'S WIND. IT GOES UP.

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
8. SORRY. HAHA.

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
YES!

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
NO!

38. Do you like to hold hands?
YES. HAHA. XDDD

39. What is the youngest you would date?
HUH?

40. What is the oldest you would date?
1-5 YEARS OLDER.

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
EYES.

42. Is it hott when guys sweat?
--- ((((:

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
EYES.

44. Do you like making eye contact?
SOMETIMES. ROFLMAO.

46. Would you kill for chocolate?
YES. ((((:

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
NO!

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
8.

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
NO.

50. Do you yell a lot?
IF NEEDED.

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
NO.

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
HELL YEAH!! ;D

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
YES.

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
EYE LINERS.

55. Do you fall in love easily?
I GUESS SO.

56. Do you have cramps?
YES.

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?
:]

Isang kahilingan. xp

2009-07-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

ONE WISH !

Makapag pose ng ganyan. Promise. HAHA. Ang weird no? Wala lang. Kasi parang ang ganyang tignan. Yan ang nasa papel na bag ng Speedo sa Mega Mall. Hindi ko lang alam sa iba. Yang babaeng yan at itong lalaking ito. Diba, Compatible. Sino kaya yung sa lalaki? Sinp paknerr ko? HAHA. Si ano? (((: Basta, Ako yung babae. i`m the girl. xp I`m not the boy. Babae ako. Hindi ba halata? HAHA. DUH. :}
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Naghihintay nalang ako umulan. Kasi, Maliligo ako. Ililipat yung sinampay nang nanay ko sa terrace. Kahit na sinisipon na ako't inuubo. Maliligo padin ako sa ulan. Kahit na pinagsabihan na ng 13 ko. Maliligo pa din ako. HAHA. Ganyan akong kabaet na bata. Anghel ba. HAHA. Nga pala. WE have no classes today. Ang ginawa ko lang, Kumain. Natulog. Nagcomputer. Yeah. I'm soo tamad to do things. Hindi pa nga ako naliligo e. HAHA. Katamad kaya. Tapos pumapak papala ako ng Nutella. Yum! HAHA. pa-expire na pala ako. argh. Goodbye unli. HAHA. Ang babaw. Basta, Sana umulan ng bongang bonga. YEHEY! =)))))))))))))))))))

Naghahanap na ng Smileys beybeh! HAHA.
It's now or neverr. -- Xstel.

Shopping at Speedo.

2009-07-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

Never Stop 'til YOU Drop! (((:

First trial. There! A size 32 -- Asian Fit at Speedo, SM Mega Mall. It`s for my swimming classes at St. Scholastica Academy. Weird. HAHA. I tried the next size, It's soo ew. Weird. Size 34 -- Still, Asian Fit. ((: Do I look sexy? ROFLMAO. Feeler. Nah, My dad just want me to be happy. Happy kid. (((: He gives me all I want. Just to see me smile. That I even say thank you then smile a lot. HOHO. I really love dad! :"> The price? Want to know it? It cost's 2, 298. 00 Pesos. Mmkay? HAHA.

This Backpack naman.. It cost's 1,249 Pesos. Not that bad. Okay? HAHA. i just gave it to the cashier and Dad just asked me what's that for. Then I just replied: The thinggies for Swimming. That will be the bag. I will not bring the gym bag anymore. Then he said, Okay. Paid it off. Boom. I love it. ((((: HAHA. I have more views of the both pictures. But then. I can't. (((: XD Too much exposure. *Baka may bumili din. May kaparehas pa ako. (((((:*

- i love you and that's all i really know. -- Xstel.

Don't be gone. x(

2009-07-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

ROFLMAO. An endorser of Nutella Ferrero. ((: Like whatever. It's crazyy. But, I go gaga over that. Now, K? It's gone. It's paubos na. ;___; I always tell my mom that buy me that big. I think that's the biggest size of Nutella. But, I think it's too; Overprice. You know. :-J HAHA. The smallest size costs 200 pesos already. Then how about that big? Oh gosh. Let me. HAHA. ((((= Now i'm NOT spending too much money on food just to buy that yummy thinggy. ((((:

I'mma gonna download some smileys. Then fix this bloggie. Including some musics. Oh, Smileys. ;;) HAHA. It's boooring. (: Oh. I got to go nao. :D Next post. Read it!

I don't want to runaway. -- xstel.

Hectic Schedule. X__X

2009-07-22T05:08:00.000-07:00

Is it too late for your white horse to come it? HAHA. LOOL. Mmkay. I`m so bored. My schedule is getting tight. Many long tests. I can still handle it. Yeah. Well, Tomorrow will be our Occular Visit. Somewhere in Antipolo. I think in Minahan? Ugh. Don`t know. I`m gonna wear high cuts. \:D/ Emergrency attire eeh. xp

Well, I miss someone. really. My one and only THIRTEEN. It`s like Monday when we last talked. At it`s BITIN pa. )): I`m missing him sooo much. When will I see him again? Talk to him again? Well. Okay. A stupid thing happened on me. In so much onmy excitement to call at their house at our lunch break last Monday. I dialed 2123047. ROFLMAO! It was a wrong number. =)))) It`s a bigg embarrasment. ((: Soo stupid. ((: It should be.. 21230-7. ((: I can`t stop burting my laughter out loud. HAHAHA. Well, The picture? Another edit by me. I love the GREEN eyes. O__O

Well, I have to go now. Goodnight and Goodbye.

"Nothing's gonna stop us. -- Xstel."

Not feeling well.

2009-07-18T20:43:00.000-07:00

Okay, I`m wondering. Where is that girl right now? What happened to her? Where is that smile that i've been looking for a hundred years. Okay, I know. That`s me. Taken last week ago. I`m finding that smile today. 'coz, My day is not that good like yesterday. Yesterday was full of fun. And today. It`s not like yesterday. It`s a big world. A different world. I don`t know what`s happening. It`s seems a while ago. I feel so good. But now, NO. He asked me if he can call. But thn. Okay, He called. Then he didn`t spoke a word. No, He spoke a word. A little. Just said 'How`s with Sobrang Cheesy?' Okay. Annoying. I know. Then I reacted like It was nothing. And hell yeah. It`s nothing. Nothing. Nothing that he keeps on telling whatever words. He didn`t know that i`m getting hurt. I`m getting more worthless and worthless each day. And now, I`m thinking, Where am I? Who am I? What I am doing? That makes me feel more bad. I think I need something. Or one disease. And die. I want to quit now. But, I know many people needs me. Even though he needs me. I know he loves me. But, It`s lacking. It`s not like before. The days that we we're hanging out together. The things that we've never done before. And now, I don`t know if he's gonna say goodbye. Because he's saying different words. I want to continue and know what love is with him. Even though we tried it many times. I don`t want to live my life alone. I want to spend my forever with him. I thought it will be a happy ending. But I think not. I want to give up now. But I can't. I wish we can go back to time. And I wish it will be a happy ending one. I was born to love. Not to cry. If life is nothing but a great lie? What`s my purpose here? To let people break my heart? Sorry, But I can't go now. I'm not feeling well. Emotionally, Socially and Physically. Not that i`m having a fever. But, When you look inside of me. Also outside. It`s nothing. I look like plain. Nothing can make me smile. Nor laugh. I was dissapointed of what`s happening nowadays. It's going far from my dreams. Of what I thought. Of what my mind has mixed up. It gone to far. I never dreamt about this happening in my life. I always think positively. Maybe, It is one of my obstacles that God is giving me. I don't know my self. But, In every step the God gives me. That let me take over. He makes me strong. Oh, How I wish he was that good also. That he can appreciate what am I doing. I know that he loves me. He keeps repeating that. But He can`t appreciate a girl. Even though, In every girl that he knows, I was the one who he loved. He said that to me. But I can`t feel it. I'm numb. Okay? UGH. I wish I can go on now. I don`t want to quit. I want to continue it.

Life is not made for lies. But for truth. -- Xstel.

Got back into the real world.

2009-07-15T05:36:00.000-07:00

YAAY! I`m back. =)))
We`re now in 13. \:D/
Tralalaa~ I just passed byy. :">
HAHAHA. =)))

Goodluck to us. And to the whole world.

I remember, Our monthsaries we`re something unique.
30022113.

Did you get it? It repeats. I wish it will end there. YEAH. =)))
I`ll stop loving you when the day comes on the 32`ND of February.

'Thirteen is NOT unlucky. Unless you`re not WORTH iT. xp"

Need to go on. =_=''

2009-07-12T00:20:00.000-07:00

It`s like yesterday that we`re okay. But today?

It`s different. T_T He thought I have this another guy. :((

But really, I don`t have another. =_="

HE`S THE ONE AND ONLY.

THE GUY I WANT TO BE WITH THE REST OF MY LIFE.

But, It's over. I can`t go back.

The scars was done. Freshly bake. ((=

Okay. I`m just pretending I can laugh.

But really. I can`t. It`s stupid right?

I need to carry on. I need to be strong.

Even though i`m full of pain. =_=''

In every word you said, I take it very seriously.

I want you to listen to what my heart wants to say.

Listen: Before I Let You Go -- FreeStyle. )):

Tinitibo mo ba ako? XDD

2009-06-11T03:56:00.000-07:00

Okay. The title must be that weird but yeah. I met my classmates na.
We`re I - Maria Goretti. For short Magot. Yeah. Ma-Got. MAria GOTretti. lewls.
but even the GOT word there wasn`t in the proper designated place.
They`re the best I ever met. I got lost at the first day.
even though we`re on a half day classes for the orientation.
I still got lost. I got no friends. No kakilala or whoever to be with me.
Sooo I went alone at recess. I got lost when I went to the Juniors-Seniours building.
that I should be on the Freshwomens and the Sophomores at that time.
GAAH. I`m soo embarassed. Good thing for me I didn`t went to my next class late.
That`s a big shy in my part. Then I saw this "girl". A freshwoman who graduated at SSAM.
She has the looks of an anime-cosplay one. She have the skintone of white.
And she has a blood of a Chinese and Japanese I think?
Neither of the two. I would like to talk to her. But I can`t. I`m shy.
She may say that i`m a girl who`s feeling close to her. But she`s cute.
Then I asked my self `Tibo na ba ako?`..
I keep on asking myself. `Tibo na ba ako? Tinitibo ba niya ako? Bad influence ba siya? Hindi naman yata.. She`s my inspiration sa school. Even though I have a bf. Pero... Ohh. Okay. Crush lang naman yun. Hindi aabot sa love ko sa bf ko. Pero... Ugh. Bahala naa.`
Then today. I went out with Adeline, Angeli, Nicole, Andrea, Joyce and I forgot the name of the girl I was with the dismissal time..
I and Joyce have the same crushes. Okay. I crush her. Soooo.
GAAH. XDD Everytime WE saw her pass by.. We scream like die-hard fans for hell.
Then my friends say that i`m blushing that they want to know who are my crushes.
Soo I said her. Lyka is her name that she`s soo cute that tibo na ba ako?
Then my another crush just sitted beside me.
GAAH. She`s below at my locker. Mine was locker number 02.
My birthday. Our Monthsary date. Her`s was 18.
Then as I rolling the code in my locker. She knows the code. It`s a little soo easy. HAHA.
That`s why she know it already. Then she said to me `Excuse mee.`
Then she sat beside me while getting her things. She`s a chinese blooded. half Filipino & half Chinese.
Then at the Filipino subject. We had a game to know each other more. then when as Group 2 rotates. (i`m a group two in that game) she`s the next one to answer. ohgosh. i`m blushing I think. Then I started talking..

Me: Lyka? Kristel (pointing to my self)

Lyka: Aah. Kristel. Okay.

Me: sooo. XDDD

The next girl after her said `Kristel. Next o. Vacant e.` Ugh. Then she said..

Lyka: So. Tatluhan nalang tayo.

The question is: Anong parte ng katawan mo ang ayaw at gusto mo?

I said face. `matigyawat kasi`... The girl said face din "daw". Then Lyka said `Nothing. I love myself.` DUH. haha. Then I posed for the "pogi" style. then she.. okay. no comment. I got strucked. Haha. Soo. Lunch time. We still talk about her. blushes. screams. whatever. Then we went at the Gym of Grade School. I forgot what they call it.. SiH maybe? Ugh. Whatever. XD

Then I was sitting beside the drinking fountain. And she`s there. She`s facing by me. I`m facing by the other way. She`s with her bestfriend maybe? And classmate. We`re there because there`s a tryout at Dance Club. Then Nicole said to Lykaa..

Nicole: Pwede bang gawa ka ulit ng quote? May humihingi kasi e. Secret admirer mo.

Lyka: ahh. Osige. Sige. Bibigay ko nalang sayo..

Nicole: okay. thanks.

Then Nicole went right after me saying what is their conversation. Okay. XDD Nicole let me see Lyka`s quote to her. Haha. It`s soo inspiring. Then now. I`m the one who asked Nicole to let Lyka make a quote. Yay! Haha. Then The bell rang. Nicole let me see her girlfriend. Okay. I got turned off. Ang panget ng girlfriend niya. ( sorry for being offended if she`s reading.. ) Then I kept quiet for 2 subjects. I was thinking...

Oo. Ayoko na. Ang panget ng taste niyaaa. -- Kristel.

Please don`t be jelous. She`s a girl. A tomboy I mean. But she`s taken by another girl..

FIRST WEEK in St. Scholastica Academy in Marikina.

2009-06-11T03:34:00.001-07:00

GAAH. I went to school this June 08, 2009. I don`t know anyone.

I`m a new Freshwoman there. BTW, St. Scholastica Academy in Marikina is an EXCLUSIVE SCHOOL FOR GIRLS.
Near MARIST (an exclusive school for boys)
Then there`s a MALL infront of our school called the Circle Mall.
Then there`s OLOPSC. (i don`t know the whole name of the school but it`s known as OLOPS College)
Then mom asked for a school service for me. One way only. Going to school.
Not going home. My parents will just pick me up in school. I was seating beside a gay.
Then I thought s/he goes to school in MARIST. so i`m sooo pacute. =))
But when I saw them went out of the service at OLOPSC.
Gosh! I was soo shocked like hell and my minds` talking.. `GOSH! BAKLA PALA SIYA!`
I LOL`ed about myself. That`s why pala when s/he saw a Purple-painted house s/he said
`Purple yung house o. Ang cute.` Then s/he keeps on sleeping in the service.
He has a pillow inserted in her/his bag. I laughed out loud in my mind.
Then when I looked at the mirror of the driver. I saw this OPOSCian girl.
Then he made irap on me. GRRR.
My first impression of me to her is right. Very right. Soooo Suplada. Maarte.
Mayabang. Maldita. All. Then I don`t give a damn fvck if ever she can read this.
But I totally hate her. She`s my subdivision-mate. I hate her.

First Ever Post.

2009-06-05T19:55:00.000-07:00

First post! Present! DUH.
My blog is a big crap. No links. UGH.
Exchange links anyone? XDDDD GAAH.
Okay. Updating.. XDDD
Soooo baet na ako e. Wahahaha.

It`s so damn EMPTY. =)))))))))))))))

little miss;; LOSER!